Over seven years ago I was ready to give up and I didn’t want to go on living. On the outside I appeared to be okay, but secretly underneath my “Sunday smile” I was in the biggest spiritual battle of my life.
Even though I was a Christian, a pastors’ wife, a Bible teacher and a worship leader, I was not okay. I was haunted by past memories, struggling with a disease and overcome with depression. The secret struggles had finally consumed my life and I had reached a point of near hopelessness. My faith was next to none and I was contemplating taking my own life. But God sent a messenger of hope, a woman who looked behind “the mask” and dug deeper than my “I’m okay” responses.
He miraculously intervened and rescued me. God used this woman to help me face those secrets from the past and He did a deep healing work on the inside. Thank God after years of bondage, within a few short months I was delivered and set free from the prison of depression, anxiety, fear and the shameful memories of the past. I was finally free to live!
My life has been forever changed by His amazing grace and I am now walking in His resurrection power. I will never be the same again! For “He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God….”Psalm 40:2-3
Though I was healed emotionally and spiritually, the muscle disease was still very active. But the Lord promised me that “His grace was sufficient and strength would be made perfect in my weakness”. It was a journey, but He was faithful to see me through. I am so thankful that Our God is the God of forgiveness, healing and restoration.
Shortly after He brought me out and set me free, He began to open up doors for me to minister and share my testimony. He also made provision for me to record my first CD titled “He Gave Me Grace”, a compilation of original songs that He had given over the years.
Over the last several years now, I have served as a worship pastor, guest speaker, guest worship leader at churches and conferences. Currently I am serving as worship leader, Bible teacher, chapel speaker and mentor in the Teen Challenge ministry. Through it all He has been faithful to strengthen me. His grace has been more than enough and He has never failed me yet!
On January 8th 2017, I received yet another discouraging diagnosis. That day, after I was discharged from the hospital, the Lord ministered to me on the ride home. He assured me He had already healed me, that I simply needed to take responsibility for the next step in my healing. I made a choice that day, to receive His word and follow His leading. A decision that would change life as I knew it. Within 4 days the pain and symptoms were leaving my body and I woke up on day 7 symptom and pain free! After a twenty year battle with a muscle disease, I am excited to testify, that God has completely healed my body!
Still almost a year later, I am not only symptom and pain free, but I am stronger than I have ever been, even as a teenager. This is truly a Miracle and Our God is truly amazing!
Oh, if you could see where Jesus brought me from…. at times I could barely walk and had to use a cane, shower chair and could hardly get out of bed. I often struggled to breathe, play piano, sing and do other normal daily activities. But friends, our God is still a God of miracles! He is the Great Physician and nothing is impossible for Him! To God be the Glory great things He has done!
It is now my desire to “go” and spread His message of hope, healing, restoration and freedom. So many people are searching, hurting, burdened and overwhelmed by life and it’s circumstances. But God is bigger than any obstacle, mountain or diagnosis we will ever face and He has a plan of “good not of evil, a future and a hope”. (Jeremiah 29:11)
The enemy has done everything in his power to keep God’s people from walking and living in the resurrection power of Jesus Christ! But we must remember, the enemy is a liar, he is ruthless and he came to steal, kill and destroy, but Jesus came that we would not only have life but have life more abundantly. (John 10:10)
So I’m declaring, enough is enough, it’s time for the Church rise, it’s time for His people to walk in their God given inheritance, live free and victorious. It’s time for us to follow God’s plan, fulfill our purpose and take territory for His Kingdom!
As for me, It’s TIME to spread the message of Hope!